Geez.

So in about a day’s time I’ll officially be thirty.

Who would’ve thought?

Never in a million years… *sigh* As depressing as it may sound… I guess age-ing is something we HAVE to deal with, like it or not…

I guess it’s also customary to do the standard “reflection time” when one reaches this “dreaded” number.

So…

10 years has practically flew by without realizing it. It wasn’t the easiest of times. Thinking back, I don’t know how I got through it, but I was really glad I did.

Of course good times, got bad times, got funny times, whatever also got. Proudest moments: Fell down, got up, failed again, got up, lose money, got up, failed again, again and again, got up, then “fortunately” got it “right” (phew)… all in a span of 10 years.

Seriously not easy one k.

As one matures, I have learnt to accept that it’s not a “crime” for us to screw up. No point in beating oneself up over spilt milk. Sure it sucks sometimes, its like “How could I be so stupid! Aiyo yo… bodoh-nya!!”

We’ve all been through that, haven’t we?

Of course, screwing up can never be easy on the soul sometimes, but after going through the highs and the lows, the ups and downs in the past , I now know and have openly accepted the fact that it’s actually pretty NORMAL for us to make mistakes, screw up, learn, screw up, learn, screw up, learn. (no one’s perfect, right?)

What else can you do?? Turning back the clock is out of the question, so the next best possible option is to move forward.

This year, “balance” was added to the vocabulary.

Not easy to master “balance” (waaaay harder than I ever thought, I’m still learning and hopefully in the coming year, I’ll get this skill “down” as well

That being said, everything starts afresh, an old chapter will be closed, fresh new ones will be opened.. it’s about moving on and DOING things “right” from now on.

On a lighter note: Next year’s gonna be an exciting year! Plans have been laid out, and it all boils down to November 7th, 2008.

A freakin’ monumental day it is.

If things go well enough, business will FLY.

If not, then I also don’t know what will happen haha.

Plan B doesn’t look so “motivating” for the moment.

So what this means is: We WILL make it happen… WHATEVER THE COST!

Gears will be shift to overdrive Nov 7th onwards… and for the whole of 2009… no more messing around, “risk” will take on a WHOLE new meaning next year… “balls” of steel will be tested like it’s never been “tested” before… creative-ness, business growth “skills” and strength will take center stage… it’s scary just thinking about it now… phew… I can only hope everything will work out the way we “envisioned” it to be.

I really, REALLY hope so.

So dear God, one more time… blessed this road we travel.

Hmmm… days ago a good friend of mine asked me out for dinner, at first all seems well, she was laughing and stuff, basically being her usual self and all.

Then suddenly out of the blue… Boom!

Startedla, all that nonsense about how her colleagues and people around her could be so nice in front of her, but behind, SHIT were thrown at her.

“Why people like that one?”, she asked.

I guess that’s just the way the world works.

No point asking so much.

Some things are just like that.

… and the best we can do is just to ACCEPT things as they are.

I guess it all boils back down to one thing: The only way to find true GENUINE happiness in life is for you to be able to have SELF-CONTROL. (I know it can be hard sometimes, but that’s where PRACTICE comes in) <– Yes, it takes time.

Externals (or basically how others may treat you, are BEYOND your control).

This is what I personally believe: If you keep living your life putting a fake front just to “fit in” and “please” people, being afraid that people might not accept you for whom you really are deep down, always “holding back”… to me, I consider that person as as good as dead.

Why?

Because you’re just not being “you”.

Can you imagine how repressed you’ll feel when you’re not living life being the “ultimate” you?

Some may be a little insecure of themselves, of who they are.

Some may say that it’s because of all the “life experiences” that they’ve went through that made them as “hard” or as stone-cold as they are.

But think about it, the core of being human is for us to “feel”, not be “cold”. That’s not what we as human beings are built for.

And the moment we lose that “feel”, we die.

And nope, this is not my own little theory, I actually went for an actual course in this, and I’ve met NUMEROUS people who were 10, 20, 30, 40 years older than me who told me the same exact thing: Never stop being “true” to yourself. Never EVER allow yourself to turn ”cold”. <– This, I NEVER forget.

Imagine yourself getting up from bed, putting on a fake mask, and going out to face the world each day.

How do you think it’ll feel?

I know of a few people who are exactly like that, and their lives are absolutely MISERABLE.

You’ll feel as if the whole world is out to “get you” each day, and you having to use your mask as a shield to deflect the crap that’s coming at you.

 Uuugh. I’m getting goosebumps just writing this.

But yeah, I know, easier said than done.

Seriously, I used be like that as well, always fearing how people might think of me, but as I grow older, I’ll be like… aah too badla then. What’s the point of thinking soo much??!

Like my mentor puts it best when he says if you come across complicated, fake mother fu^kers… “screw them”.

Your job then is to find people to be with genuine friends who will appreciate you for whom you really are. (It takes time and effort to find these people, yes, but trust me, it’s well worth the effort).

If you’re nice to them, and you think that you’re being manipulated in any way or form or just simply feel like you’re being taken for a ride and taken advantage off, walk away.

Smile, don’t say anything and just WALK AWAY. <–This can be one of the hardest things to do sometimes, I’ve had several such experiences of my own, it wasn’t easy, but it can be done again… with practice. The trick is to just “turn off”, cut the line, and NOT look back when you’ve made your decision (bad or good).

People say nice guys finish last.

Is it true?

I used to think so.

But not so now.

The question “Whats the point of doing good, being nice to people when at the end of the day, you’re the one who get’s fu^ked from behind??!!”

Answer: What goes around, comes around.

My principle has always been to not treat others the way I don’t want to be treated in the first place, some call it naïve, I don’t know, but living by this rule has made my life
soooooooo much more easier and happier til now hehe…

So I think I’ll still stick to this one for the meantime

A basketball in my hands is worth about $19. A basketball in Michael Jordan’s hands is worth about $33 mil’lion.

A baseball in my hands is worth about $6. A baseball in Mark McGuire’s hands is worth $19 mil’lion.

A tennis racket is useless in my hands. A tennis racket in Venus Williams’ hands is a championship win’ning.

A rod in my hands will keep away a wild animal. A rod in Moses’ hands will part the mighty sea.

A sling shot in my hands is a kid’s toy. A sling shot in David’s hand is a mighty weapon.

Nails in my hands might produce a birdhouse. Nails in Jesus Christ’s hands will produce salvation for the entire world.

As you see now it depends whose hands it’s in. So an oppor’tunity is only an oppor’tunity depending on whose hands its in.

So now this message is in your hands. What will YOU do with it?

“It Depends on WHO’S Hands it’s in!!”

Moral of the story: Opportunities don’t come often, but when they do, GO for it…